Rosa Derriviere
The relationships we create!
Now then….This topic came to me whilst I was trying to get to sleep, last night.
Tossing and turning, I decided to just lie still in supine position, and allow, today’s material for my show to take shape. This is what I was given.
Rewind: “Flash backs” from my past, relationships came flooding in. The first, real relationship that would have changed the pattern of my life path completely, if I’d stayed the distance was with a lovely man Called Steve. Orbell
I was just 17 years old, very mature for my age and full of energy and attitude! (Yes you can imagine) I met Steve, at a party we flirted, and exchanged telephone numbers To cut a very long story short, we went on to have a 6 year relationship, which was very relevant indeed Because…..
I left home at 17. My Father, bless him, was a very strict Roman Catholic Southern Italian man stuck in the Victorian era! I have to feel for him really, because he really did think that he was doing his best by bringing up 5 children, in London having migrated from Southern Italy to make a better life for his family. He ended up, as many Italians did back then, in South London. A wonderful place called The Elephant and Castle! YES …Famous for its Greyness and lack of soul! although things are changing and in 5 to 10 years time, I predict a 2nd canary wharf? Not sure if that’s a good or bad thing, I got out as quickly as I could!
The likes of Roger Moore and Michael Kane are the fruits of this marvellous place!!!! Anyway…
My relationship with Steve was a WAY OUT. (I did love him though) I needed to live, and breathe. This was almost impossible to do, with a father that had real problems with his girls growing up and becoming REAL WOMAN He failed miserably with us all, in trying to control what we did, and who we did it with and as a conscience, lost out big time because in the end, we did things in our own way any how which he couldn’t, and never did accept! ….. Moving on ….
If I had stayed with my first love, I would have created a very different life to the one I have today, No doubt. I would have had a least 4 great children, perhaps never have perused a career that reflected what was in my heart and soul, and for sure would have felt a little cheated, because I followed a family pattern out of Fear and probably would have felt, that I never reached, my true potential! (Don’t get the tissues out yet)
If I went through my whole relationship history, as interesting as it’s been I’d get told off, for writing too much so…..
My point is that we never just “fall into our relationships” WE CREATE THEM what ever our reasons or motives are.
I went on to have just one other significant relationship before I met my Husband. Lots of insignificant ones in between, but really I was always looking to connect and feel deep passionate love! This, has always been my mission Venus in Libra in the 6th house Mars in Scorpio, in the 7th I couldn’t have it any other way! All my Astro sisters and brothers will understand what I mean.
Would I have done anything differently? Probably Not. However I’m always up for learning and growing. Every break up, or break down I had, no matter how significant or not, always had a profound impact on me.
When I look back, I can actually see why certain relationships never worked out. They were never meant to. They simply “ran their course” and were a reflection of where I was at, at that time.
My intention and motivation, was and always is Pure, which is why, I have No regrets when it comes to my relationships. Past and present.
See you then
Rosa xx
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Goooooooooooooooood Morning Rosa, darling!
I can relate to this! Left home just before my 16th B’Earthday and my Sardinian papa’ was too very traditional and a little lost when it came to understanding women, in general; let alone accepting my transition to womanhood! LOL Bless him! xxx
I never understood why I created such awful relationships and experiences for myself. Wanted to leave home from the age of 8 and, as soon as I got the chance to, I did. It was my first year living in the UK, I soon figured out things were different over here! Let’s just say that I went from the pan to the frying pan??!!!
It all makes sense now!
These hard experiences; no matter how many mental and physical scars came with them, were all needed to shape me into the Woman I am today. They also prepared me to take on absolutely anything and see it through! They certainly prepared me to serve one of my main purposes in Life; to heal and help others.
It took me ages to figure out one of my true and main purposes; however, no course, workshop or degree could ever match the knowledge, wisdom and strength that I have gained through creating my own reality and going through real Life experiences!
I have been reunited with the Love of my Lives…and trust me when I say that this knowledge, wisdom and strength have never come in more handy! LOL
Loads of Love, Light & Mediterranean Passion! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxG
Hello Rosa, my relationships have never been easy. I come from a family that is very rich in history and fame and the problem when you come from strong roots is that when your family discover your identity is more in tune with freedom where they see you creating your own path away from what is the tradition, people always wrongly label one THE BLACK SHEEP in the family. But the reality is, I am just living my life in accordance to my own rhythms, and not stepping on anybody’s toes. But yes, I guess that in the end, I have learned a lot from my past, where although I threw myself into relationships with people that others wouldn’t agree, I am happy I did, as I went in with a pure heart. One day I hope to marry a freespirit like me, because at the end of the day, one cant feel happy until we find what we truly feel we need, no matter what our roots are. We create our own family in the end!
Thanks from Anastasia ARIES born in 1980
A wonderful blog, and thanks for sharing it with us, I agree to an extent but the fear factor kicked into my life and i spent 22 years with my partner,I no longer know who i am or what my purpose is, other then mum to my children, partner to him etc, even friends take a lot and my work is also very demanding and challenging of me. I give so much out and nothing seems to come back. I had a reading with rose/rosemund? on option 0 and i told her I had just embarked in an affair with someone who made me feel alive. She said I was one of the most horrendous starsigns that exist followed closely by him (scorpio) she said we both deserved the pain we would shortly experience, Rosa I have never hurt anyone intentionally and theres no one that dislikes what i’ve done more than me, i am so low and feel like there isnt much point now. I am as Rosemund said horrible, but Ive tried for so long
Love and light