Comments on: Thought of the Day … Litz http://www.yourdreampsychic.com/2009/12/09/thought-of-the-day-litz-10/ Welcome to our site Sun, 06 Jun 2010 10:36:20 +0100 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.1 hourly 1 By: lotte http://www.yourdreampsychic.com/2009/12/09/thought-of-the-day-litz-10/comment-page-1/#comment-2155 lotte Wed, 09 Dec 2009 11:29:29 +0000 http://www.yourdreampsychic.com/?p=3006#comment-2155 Hi Litz, I hope you are well! I've been trying to get through to you on the phones today, but there's been a problem with my pin number, no one has any idea whats wrong with it!!!! Crazy electrical technical stuff! I think we all live our lives in different roles, playing out whatever scene suits that moment in the apporpriate character. There are always times in our lives when we have to act totally differently to how we feel. There may be moments where we feel total euphoria but the situation we're in doesn't allow us to show it, it may be at work where we have to suppress that child like urge to scream and shout with joy or laugh uncontrollably because we have to remain calm andd professional. On the other hand, we may feel absolutely rubbish, on the point of tears, feeling like we're breaking inside but we have to take a deep breath, stick a smile on our face, tell ourselves we can make it through and become this whole other person to the outside world so that we can get through the day. This is how I feel most days, I feel like I'm breaking inside, almost to the point where I feel like I'm screaming without making a sound. When no one is around I cry a lot and let my emotions show but I can't let the cracks show to others. I have to keep pretending so that others don't see the failure I've become. We all have to hide things, we're all expected to be certain things to certain people and have to carry out those roles so that we don't let others down. I guess it's important to bear in mind the extent to which we do this, and the extent to which we hide away and suppress those emotions. If we keep running from ourselves will we eventually start running from others too? I want to change the scenery, set, hell I want to change the whole plot of my life (as you know!), and I'm trying, although it's slow I'm still trying. I'm still getting through my degree and I'm doing little things to try and help me through (a lot of the things we've talked about are really helping at the moment). Things are really bleak but hopefully through changing my role within my plot I'll help to turn the story round. Hope to speak to you soon, Lots of love, Lotte xx Hi Litz,

I hope you are well! I’ve been trying to get through to you on the phones today, but there’s been a problem with my pin number, no one has any idea whats wrong with it!!!! Crazy electrical technical stuff!

I think we all live our lives in different roles, playing out whatever scene suits that moment in the apporpriate character. There are always times in our lives when we have to act totally differently to how we feel. There may be moments where we feel total euphoria but the situation we’re in doesn’t allow us to show it, it may be at work where we have to suppress that child like urge to scream and shout with joy or laugh uncontrollably because we have to remain calm andd professional. On the other hand, we may feel absolutely rubbish, on the point of tears, feeling like we’re breaking inside but we have to take a deep breath, stick a smile on our face, tell ourselves we can make it through and become this whole other person to the outside world so that we can get through the day.

This is how I feel most days, I feel like I’m breaking inside, almost to the point where I feel like I’m screaming without making a sound. When no one is around I cry a lot and let my emotions show but I can’t let the cracks show to others. I have to keep pretending so that others don’t see the failure I’ve become.
We all have to hide things, we’re all expected to be certain things to certain people and have to carry out those roles so that we don’t let others down. I guess it’s important to bear in mind the extent to which we do this, and the extent to which we hide away and suppress those emotions. If we keep running from ourselves will we eventually start running from others too?
I want to change the scenery, set, hell I want to change the whole plot of my life (as you know!), and I’m trying, although it’s slow I’m still trying. I’m still getting through my degree and I’m doing little things to try and help me through (a lot of the things we’ve talked about are really helping at the moment). Things are really bleak but hopefully through changing my role within my plot I’ll help to turn the story round.

Hope to speak to you soon,
Lots of love,

Lotte xx

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